Excellence is for the Inebriated

I don’t need someone to lecture me about needing to spend time with my brother when I’d rather do homework around him in that batcave than in the living room with my parents. SHEESH.

Because I know it’s my escapist tendencies coming out. I understand it. But that doesn’t make me want to just sort of vanish into a drunken haze for a few weeks any less.

I pretty much frustrated my own mum to tears over the course of this month due to my own laziness. Awesome. Over something completely trivial, too. I knew I was just pressing my boundaries. I comprehended it. I understood the effects of my inaction. I just didn’t care. And I guess I still don’t if my first instinct is to grab a bottle. Turns out I’m growing into quite the adult.

Really, the only thing I can’t bear is disappointing someone to that level. It’s a pretty sure sign that you’ve fucked up when you walk in intending to profusely apologize and instead receive an ultimatum.

This wouldn’t suck so much if alcoholism didn’t run in my family like nobody’s business. Then I’d have some recourse. If I’m to have any future as a human being, I’m going to have to do without. As it stands now, I’ve just got to go to sleep, wake up in the morning, and ask my entirely too agitated father to drive me to my observation at a local school.

Bah, I feel pretty melodramatic about the whole thing. Things will calm down, hopefully. Tomorrow and Friday are the last days I’ll need a favor of my parents for a while. Hopefully I’ll be able to ask my brother instead before he goes off to boot camp. Oh dear. I certainly don’t want to be stuck in this house with people who seem to resent me so much. It’s enough to make me want to run off. Flighty, eh? Well, that’s how I deal. I’ll figure something out.

thisisthor:

I like you an awful lot!

hehe you’re wonderful as well! My life just keeps giving me things to rage about! Gah. Guess it gives me sufficient reason to write a couple of paragraphs, though, so that’s kind of nice.

He’s given me a superior advantage and I’m going to do with it what I always have: Infuriate him by being incredibly likable and ignoring him <3 

Never give someone as competitive as I am an edge against you, readers! It’s tragic!

I managed to remain out of the way and respect the line I’d drawn in the sand and he couldn’t resist crossing it to contact me.

I win, motherfucker.

Elmer Fudd, as of 8 hours ago:

I was told I should do this so here I go. I am sorry for what has happened. I would have told you that in person, but it is obvious that you are avoiding me. I know it is way overdue to say that, but in the end it had to be said. I am sorry are friendship went south, but I can’t control what people say. I just thought you should know I am truly sorry. So now Alex you have a great life, and now I can officially say I have done everything in my power to try to make things right.

Oh, how very nice of you to apologize because something in your skull (let’s call it “remorse”) said you ought to have the least bit of shame. That’s awfully sane of you. Wait! Someone told you to do this? Huh. You don’t think that just undermines everything you’ve written? Of course not; you’re an idiot.

Who’s avoiding who here? I happen to be busy with schoolwork and observations. Clearly, my vocational training is going to come first to ensuring your life is a living hell. Not to mention, I saw you Monday. Remember when the people you’re closest with chose me to speak to once I stepped in the door? That’s why I remember. If you’re hoping some melding of social circles, I’m going to have to disappoint you.

Way overdue to say what, exactly? That someone said you should apologize? Sincere. 

… “Our relationship went south?” Jesus, do you even listen to yourself? First of all, the fact that you used the term relationship means you had more of an emotional attachment here than I did, which only strengthens my argument against you. You want to say “relationship,” fine. That’s technically what that a friendship is. But I wouldn’t dare to use that word in reference to you. It’s disrespectful to my acquaintances. 

You clearly aren’t truly sorry. You decided that you should apologize after someone told you to. This is the third time I’ve said this and I cannot emphasize it enough. You’re. Not. Sorry. You just think that you can get something out of this. I certainly don’t mind that I no longer have to listen to your inane arguments or your awful impediment. “Bictoh?” I don’t think that’s a name, dear.

What people say?! How about what YOU said. You certainly didn’t try to control that before letting your imagination run your mouth. It doesn’t matter if you admitted to what you did. I’d still despise you.

Your well wishes seem more like” “Ug. You. Do this. Now.” I’m afraid I can’t accept them. For one, you can’t even figure out how to use a goddamn comma. For two, I’ve much too much seething hatred for you. You disrespected my relationship with my fiance. You disrespected me by not owning up to it. You further disrespected me through deception and lies and then proceeded not to own up to it. And now you want me to accept your apology? Because someone else thinks you should do it?

I don’t see why you even bothered. Go die in a fire.

You’ve done nothing to make this right. You’ve denied everything. You’ve hidden out of sight so that I wouldn’t see you. You’ve used a friend’s facebook account to deceive me. Clearly, that is what rational people do. Congratulations, you’re nuts!

Oh, and I couldn’t find a good place to put this, but whatever: You’ve thought about this. This is entirely premeditated. You took time and deliberation to spell out all of your words, likely in hopes that I’d take this seriously. Well, I did. I seriously wish you harm now. Good job, you only made my hatred towards you worse! I bet your mum would be so proud!

fwips:

Hey Sherlock, get over here, man.

I found some

Fresh Prints.

thisisthor:

See?!?

Haha! Not really, but I appreciate it! :D

I think we all know it won’t, but I might as well give it a shot!

Some asshole on my facebook feed:

School shooting today in Cleveland Missouri, and you know why? Bullying. Teachers need to step up and take control of the god damn situation before this happens. But you know what? Ever since we.are born, we are taught take care of our own problems, well, this kid did, and I don’t blame him. I don’t have ONE DAMN OUNCE OF PITY for the bullies shot today. Someone needs to keep these kids in check. Let it be a teacher that gets shot next, I’m sure the state will take notice then, but untill then, its fuck the kids, where is my money. Makes me sick.

I’m reading this as mum turns on the telly. If there were a shooting in my state, you’d think it would be all over the news. After a bit of research, I find it was 30 miles east of Cleveland, Ohio, you stupid prick.

You know what makes me sick? People taking a fucking political stance and blaming others when there are people dead. Blame teachers, blame the bullies. It doesn’t matter. The fact is that people have died and you’re too busy flinging shit to give a fuck. It’s easy to blame the teachers. Sure. But the fact is that you don’t know enough to know entirely who is at fault. You know nothing of the shooter’s mental state. You know nothing of the circumstances. And you likely never will. You’re neither qualified, nor informed enough to make any sort of claim.

Wait, is it teachers or society that’s at fault, here? “We’re taught to take care of our own problems?” What an argument. Clearly, he “handled” this situation in the most reasonable way possible. Surely, he’s not responsible for the trauma he’s inflicted on the entire town. Let’s not hold him accountable for what he’s done. Let’s focus on hate. Let’s cast blame.

No one is asking for you to sympathize with his bullies. It’s not like anyone can make you. We can’t help that you’re a callous son of a bitch. That you would even suggest that another person be harmed in this context is appalling. But it’s worth it to make your message known to the state, right? While we’re at it, how about we fly a couple of 747’s into a couple of national monuments? How very reasonable.

Oh, and way to show a complete disregard for how education works. Public education has never been about making money. As a preservice teacher, let me tell you what I’m expecting. I’m expecting to be dirt-fucking-poor so that I can help high school students grow.  Academically, socially, emotionally. Don’t you even think that your local high school’s only goal was to make a buck off of your attendance, not when we’re expecting even more funding cuts at the public level.

Some asshole on my facebook feed decided to comment on his post with this:

On a side note, my condolences to the family of the bully victim during this time.

Right. That totally exempts you from being a Grade-A douchebag. Carry on.

bigbigtruck:

‘cause i’m about to admit I still fucking love the rockefeller skank

here goes

Rather, you just gained a follower :3

I didn’t intend it that way, but no regrets! :3

You’re going to figure we already know who Bronfenbrenner is, but doubt that we’ve heard of Noam-Motherfucking-Chomsky? As far as trendy theorists go, this fellow’s at the top of the list right now and has been for a long time! Gah. I follow him on facebook, for fuck’s sake. Clearly that is the epitome of understanding. :3

fyrephox:

Morgan Freeman

Alan Rickman

Sir Ian McKellen

Christopher Lee

Alec Baldwin

Isaiah Mustafa

Robin Williams

George Carlin

Oooh man, I’m gonna have to add Anthony Hopkins to this list. And Alan Alda just for funsies :3